I cried,
but I did not quit.
When ravenous racism,
raged at my Blackness,
I did not spit back.
When playground “games”
insisted that
I wear cardigans,
atop my head,
to mimic straightened hair,
I could have cried,
but did not dare,
for fear, of sitting out.
Not, fitting in,
was not an option.
Joining in,
I could not
live without.
Kiss-chase,
left me broken-hearted.
No-one chose me.
I was “too dark” .
Dumped,
before romance had started…
which set up a trend…
Totally rejected,
from beginning,
to the end
of my scholastic journey.
But,
Mum said this, to me…
“That’s not what
your education’s for!
It’s not about looks!
Now, walk tall, like I taught you!
Take your brain,
your books,
your words,
and use them,
to burst through
segregation’s door!”
Her, ever eloquent, encouragement,
was Heaven-sent and timely.
So, that’s what I did.
Kept aiming high.
Began to think
my skin
was welcomed in…
at every level…
But, how wrong was I.
Frequently,
finding my surroundings
less diverse…
I grew stronger.
Felt no compulsion,
to rehearse responses,
in the face of questioning,
as to my presence,
at events,
billed as,
“exclusive”.
As the meaning,
reached new depths…
rather than, reclusive,
I grew,
profound.
I mean,
how long and, just,
how far,
would people go,
in vain attempts, to mute my sound?
How much harder,
would I have to try?
Why was there a need
for me to justify
my breathing, of the same air?
Why does
a raised brow of the eye,
still remain there,
whenever I express opinion?
Why shouldn’t I pronounce
my thoughts,
with clarity of diction?
Why must I be classified,
“Exotic. From the village.”
What does that, even, mean?!
What does that provide?
I. Am. A. Londoner.
Black. Afro-Caribbean. British.
Outside and inside.
Born here.
I won’t hide my light.
So,
what makes you think
you have the right
to steal the bread
out of my basket of
pre-destined opportunities?
Are. You. For. Real?!!!
What makes you feel
that you can shout the odds,
behind my back,
when I have read my paper,
drunk a pint,
in peace…
and head to the ladies’,
for release?
When will your cowardice cease?
At least,
address your disease,
to my face.
If not,
pipe down!
I think you’ll find,
I’m staying.
Going somewhere,
fuelled by
Joy and Blessings,
known as,
Success…
You may hate me.
But,
I will be in Love…
I shall abide,
in humblest Gratitude,
for whom God has made me..
A message,
to the mess of prejudice,
who cannot be dismissed…
nor, displaced…
A,
uniquely-crafted,
work of art..
A credit,
to His Hallowed
Human Race.
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